for the first time ever in my life-

transferred in an ambulance & HOSPITALIZED for 3 days-

since the 24th til last night. im back at home now. WHEWWWWWWWWW. i hated it there.

9.24.07  7:30AM  Anaheim Memorial E.R. ---> x-rays, blood tests, IV injections, anti-acid medication thru IV, etc. etc. etc.

doctor decides to HOSPITALIZE me for an endoscopy thru my mouth into my esophagus and stomach-

1:30PM amulance comes and transfers me to a different hospital-

@ Tustin 2PM.

nurses wont give me FOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wont let me go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! continuous IV injection- makin me cold.

surgery nurses start moving my bed.

inside the O.R. (operating room) @ 1pm the 25th. sedation making me feel realllllly weird.

the endoscopy procedure begins. i wanna yak. REALLY SUCKS. traumatized by the experience.

brought back into my room. no energy. scared. humiliated. traumatized.

ok ok LONG story made short: CLOROX INJESTION. I DRANK CLOROX.  

and NO, i was NOT suicidal. YES, they served CLOROX in my drink at the restaurant.

will update lateR. gotta go pick up my prescription. my esophagus and lining of my stomach is burnt & messed up or somethin. i'll be on medication for one month.

hmmmmmmmm...but i wonder if the diagnosis is really from the clorox or from my STRESS these past few years........hmMmMmmM............

debating: attorney action or no attorney action?????!!! forget about money, i DO NOT want this to happen again to other people. Korean restaurants need to learn a lesson. i mean, clorox in the drink that you order at a restaurant? ARE YOU SERIOUS???!!! this stuff is seriously deadly, the nurses told me. which is why the doctors were probably taking it so seriously when i kept telling them that i'm okay. they were tripping out more than me. i was like....uhhhh....i am okay~~~ but then if you think about it, that was seriously POISON and i could've died!!!!!!!!!

i wonder how much the hospital bill is gonna turn out to be. with E.R. and ambulance and staying overnight for 2-3 days and the x-rays and tests and the endoscopy operation thingy...OH DANG.....................

*edit:

brian welch from koRn came and spoke at church today.
PRAISE GOD for what He has done in & through his life and for revealing His glory through him!
i pray that this influential man will continue to be used for the rest of his life as God's powerful tool
in spreading the Gospel...

haven't read it yet, but i really like the title of his book:

Save Me From Myself

'상처'는 참 무서울수도 있는 것 같다.

때론 내 자신을 마치 잃어버리는것만 같이 느끼게 하고 

그래서 혼란 속으로 들어가게 만들기도 한다.

물론 늘 그런건 아니지만,

가끔, 예고하지 않은채, 아주 불쑥.

그래도 "Adversity is the diamond dust Heaven polishes its jewels with." 라는 말을 기억해야겠지.

결국 되돌아보면 잡아 주시는 주님이 계시기에 계속해서 걸어갈수 있는 것이고.

나에게 2005-2007년은...

나의 믿음의 정도가 드러나는
계기였다.

나의 부족함을 깨달을수 있는
소중한 시간들이었다.

내안에 좀더 성숙한 사랑과 신앙을 키울수 있는
기회였다.

체험하였다.
고난은 정말로 위장된 축복이라는 것을.

Thank You, Lord, for your EVERLASTING LOVE...

Recovering.